Dude I love packing last minute... It is so awesome

 

 

                                               Without God and Love...

 

 

This...

This is getting harder.

i can't see, to pick you out my head.

and now i am beginning to doubt,

breath and jump back to the water, even tho it's the last time.

 

This is when we drown, jumping back to the darkness

this is when life ends, everyday like yesterday.

this is when our dreams die...

i can see thousands of faces choosing to ignore.

 

curse my enemies...

 

this where it ends, without God.

But now  im barley gonna remember.

My God knows how much i Hated this

these disasters and life will never be the same,

If without you.

 

I don't... want to be left alone.

I don't.. want to sleep alone.

my best friend is you...

i feel like my world is falling down

 

Sometimes i think that life would never be he same, i would think that's the answer.

but how did it get to this...

 

I think i got a thing for you, having much blessing and loving.

I can see the horizon rising...

it was nature God made.

but how did it get to this...

 

Dear God, my life stretched so long.

sometimes i think that life would never be the same,

sometimes i think that's the answer,

sometimes that everything would fall down.

 

Without you life would burn down.

Jump back into the water, even tho its the last time.

this is when life is a disaster life everyday like yesterday.

I can see thousands of faces choosing to ignore...

 

This isn't just goodbye.

this when the rode crashes into the ocean

this when life burns down to something beautiful.

this is when few lights comes out to life that we destroy.

 

I listen to you talk,

a talk for intentions and parables.

but my mouth is filled with flood,

full of hate.

when everyone doesn't believes you.

 

If felt like...

every time i look at you, you turn away.

 

i dont... want to sleep alone...

i dont... dont want to be taken home...

please dont... make me sleep alone in the dark.

let your presence be visible to me.

 

i can see my heart scared.

like broken glass.

my best friend is you God,

just tear my whole world.

racing through my heart

 

I dont... want to sleep alone...

i dont... dont want to be taken home...

please dont... make me sleep alone...

no one understands my feelings...

 

I hid my scares where no one notice.

im dying.

just let me slip away from you.

im barely holding on.

just lift me up and hold on to me.

 

If God left us...

The sun would never come up again.

I dont... want to sleep alone...

i dont... dont want to be taken home...

please dont.. make me sleep alone...

 

I can feel the breath inside my head.

something got change in my life.

but sometimes i think life would never be the same, i would think that's the awsnser...

 

This is where i fall down,

this is where dreams die without God

I can see thousands of faces chooses to ignore.

Is is where i can't stand this...

 

 

 

whew that's was long... ill need to work on it so it can be a song.. hope you enjoyed it and understand my feelings about this... ^^

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                                   I'll never be the same, My savior

 

 

I was a nobody, Trapped in  a closet.

Like a lost ghost looking for hope.

I felt like nothing...

I felt alone, so empty,

Until i heard a vioce.

 

It was my savior

It was my Shepard

It was my God

 

Hs perfect words helped me reach to him.

His message is always perfect.

He held me and told me, "I'll Never Let You Go..."

I felt so Happy.

My old Friends couldn't believe the way i changed.

I became a different person.

I have been drawn out of the water.

 

My spirit of Christ is strong now.

Nothing can hold me back.

I don't care what others think of me.

It felt so joyful tho i can't explain.

I met new friends who changed me life (you know who you are)

 

I'm tired of walking alone, believing myself, tho God is with me and will always be.

My friends are always with me and i would die for them,

But i will live for God.

 

He is My savior

He is my Shepard

He is My God

 

He held his arms around me and said, "I'll Never Let You Go..."

I felt so happy

I will never be the the same that God changed my life.

I've been drawn out of the water.

 

I love you Jesus, I felt so blessed, my legs shake and kneel before you and surrender to you.

You are eveything to me.

My life isn't perfect without You.

 

Hard to think you would choose a person like me to be saved.

You are my Savior,

My father,

My sheard,

My God!

You are my father,

You are above everything else,

You are everything to me.

This isn't just a song, this is my Life he gave me.

You can be drawn out of the water as well....

I Just wanted to share this reflection/revelation that I had:

John 3:29 and 4:7-18: "The bride belongs to the bridegroom. ..."     "He told her, "Go, call your husband and come back." "I have no husband," she replied. Jesus said to her, "You are right when you say you have no husband. The fact is, you have had five husbands, and the man you now have is not your husband. What you have just said is quite true""

I have been reading John recently. Actually I just started today.  And I came across these two passages, John 3:29 and 4:16-18.  If you read the inbetween parts you may know what's going on, but haha, it's a bit too long to write. 

Reflection (If I misinterpreted this... well I'm sorry) :

  You may think that the Bride has like nothing to do with this passage, but it has everything to do with it. not everything, but like there's this central idea in it.  Previously, in Genesis, Abraham sends out a servant to find a wife for Issac.  The servant goes to a well, very much like the one we see here when Jesus talks to the samaritan woman.  The Rebekah of the story is actually very nice and very pleasant, while the Samaritan woman is not that great.  She questions Jesus, and is suprised to hear Him speak to her.  But that's something else.  Anyway Jesus tells her to call her husband, where she says she currently has none, and Jesus replies that she has had 5.  The Husbands, are things of worship.  Women tend to "worship" or abundantly love their husbands.  In a way, these husbands are like our idols, or whatever we worship.  The Samaritan woman can be seen as us people.  I am that Samaritan woman.  I had been married and chained to other things other than God but God says, "the bride belongs to the bridegroom".  Jesus! Jesus is that bridegroom!  We are personified through the Samaritan woman.  He was the one came to us because he was to marry/save us!  It's like Hosea!  God tells Hosea to take for himself a prostitute and marry her!  In a way, we are as dirty, and as permiscuous as that prostitute.  But God tells us we belong to Him.  Isn't that amazing????  I have NEVER EVER thought of this verse in this way, and it's amazing how He would reveal this to me.

 

Also, this is from the Exodus Series from Pastor Matt I'm not sure where exactly it's found, but if you heard the sermon then.. you should know haha:

Umm.. Well.. anyway, I got this from Pastor Matt's sermon, and once again, if I misinterpreted this.. then I'm sorry:

  Ok, this is the story where God has delivered the Jews from the Egyptians and they are crossing the Red Sea.  The Egyptians are on a warpath trying to go and kill the Jews, they have chariots and according to pastor Matt, Chariots = GG.  Anyway, that land, that the Jews were on, that Egyptian land, it's like the land of sin.  You know, it's the land that we were slaved to the world, slave to death.  And Jesus dies and made a path, which would be like the parting of the Red Sea, and as we cross it, we are in the process of being saved.  The Egyptians, to me, are like Satan or Sin.  They are trying to hold us back, and kill us and try to enslave us again, but we are set, we are ready (somewhat), and we are determined to go across and to the promised land.  And the Jews crossed and the waves crashed and crushed the egyptians, hence, Jesus' blood (waves) would wash away sin (egyptians).  Umm.  The Land of wilderness is our current life right now,  God leads us, but we still have hardships and trouble.  and as Pastor Matt told us something like this last week, "When you're in wilderness you proclaim the realism of God's salvation, and God becomes real as we are in troubled times." (not word for word).  And the Promised land is basically Heaven.  But anyway, God doesn't lead us to the wilderness just to make us hate Him, He has never forsaken us.  He may allow for things to happen, or allow us to do things that may make us worse and worse, but the recovery, the repentance and the effort we choose to put in allows us to feel that realism of His presence.  Like psalms 23, "The Lord is my shepard..." He is always with us, and in times of trouble, he is even closer.  We are saved therefore we obey, it isn't we obey and therefore we are saved.  If you switch that two around, then well you aren't living that christian life.  We obey God because we love Him, not be be saved, because we're already saved (If you're born again) and to obey, shows that we love Him.  We become the things we Love/worship.

The bible has a lot of parallelisms and words of encouragements.  Anyway this is all my opinion and what I've gotten out of it, if I misinterpretted then I'm sorry God.

Holy Wave service 083108, the offering song really touched me.

listen to the song, Nichole Nordeman- Why

 

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my Daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

 

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man
That my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

 

So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows
Daddy, please can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry
you said he was stronger than all of those guys
Daddy, please tell me why
Why does everyone want him to die?"

 

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And Daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide

 

So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

 

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for My robe?
This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows
Father, please can't You do something?
I know that You must hear My cry
I thought I could handle the cross of this size
Father, remind Me why
Why does everyone want Me to die?
When will I understand why?"

 

"My precious Son, I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own
Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know
But this dark hour I must do nothing
Though I've heard Your unbearable cry
The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies
Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes
Look there below, see the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell You why
She is why You must die"

 

 

 

There is power in the blood. and What Jesus had to go through. all the pain and hurts he took for us. it's just amazing. cause its definitely really easy to call myself sinful, selfish, arrogant, stubborn, all of the above. we look at ourselves and its a long list of sins and bad things, buht then we can look at the cross and we find total peace. ALL the burdens that we had carried before just simply all disappeared. Jesus covers all sins. its just too cool how Jesus took all the pain for us. I'm so thankful and in awe how Jesus did that for us, for such a sinful person like me. I am thankful. THANK YOU THANK YOU JESUS. ILOVEYOU.

yo!

isn't this really cool!?

let's do this~!

 

by the way, i'm so happy to be eHigh pastor. 

i think Class Servants 08's are such a wonderful group of people~

 

MWL

hello!

first off, thank you so much for all your concerns, caring hearts, and prayers.
i along with smn were deeply touched and moved by your love for us.
this morning was the worst, but after seeing a doctor, getting three shots in the butt, eating at home and taking a nap, i am now just dizzy, yet bearable.
yes, contrary to some opinions, it was not swine flu.

I had a really good time with family last Thursday, after returning from the retreat, only to wake up next day to find myself aching everywhere, freezing, and high fever.
this fever temporarily realized when Advil kicked in for few hours, but they remained up from 102 to 104 degrees and was taking life out of me. all my previous experiences of flu were gone in few days, so i expected it to get better by Sunday, but it didn't. So i planned, i timed my waking up, eating, taking medicine, and all the other elements, so that when we're worshipping i'll be on the medicine-high, the peak time when extra dosage of Advil will be at work, but my plan failed miserably; i never had such experience where i seriously considered that i may pass out.

the situation was better when i felt your prayers and acupunturist deacon from our church saw me immediately after service, and i had rather peacful Sunday afternoon, but this morning it was back to normal when 4 pills of Advil as recommended by deacon doctor at the clinic room did its work and evaporated from my body. i was in so much pain, constantly sweating, and now coughing uncontrollably. though admitting myself into USC Hospital (which is nearby my place) became a serious option i considered, i went to see a doctor where Katie teacher works, and told me that it appears that i have symptoms for both viral infection and bacterial infection, plus bronchitis, and prescribed three shots in the butt and series of medicines to cope with my pain until i fully recover.

so, that's the update on my situation, i wanted to fill you in.

one of the most - perhaps the most difficult - thing for me now is that i cannot hold Olivia or kiss SMN (though we promised each other that we'll kiss at least, at least once a day everyday). the doctor said that my condition is contagious and i have to be somewhat quarantined from my child, and also with SMN. the doctor also informed me that the pain will kick in tomorrow again (i'll be okay today because of shots), and it'll take another 2-3 days to gain control, and 5-7 days until it finally dies down even though i may not feel it in me. so she also recommends that i stay away from high school students....

there were many many incidences in the course of my fight against illness that i discovered spiritual element to this battle. I had not realize it until this morning, but as soon as i reconginzed that this is spiritual battle as well, i was also confident of our victory.

 

my beloved eHighers!

i am so privileged and honored to be your pastor and oh boy i believe God's got some dreams for us!

i am determined to see that happen in you and seeing our Unstoppable God leading us to Unstoppable lives as Unstoppable Body of Christ!

 

i must be away from you this week.

but i will return with more humility, more dependence on God, more passion, more compassion, more wisdom, more depth, and greater vision for our ministry.

I have talked to our executive pastor and will take this week (until Sunday) off - since it's best to be 'quarantined' and this will bit longer battle than i expected.
gosh, i've never been this sick in my life, and it kind of sucks, but i'll take this opportunity to refine our vision and set the course straight in preparation of KDC!
this next year may be the best year of our lives!  and i'll take this week to pray, envision, and prepare for it in a special way, in a quarantined room to myself, haha!

I've already spoken to my dear friend Pastor Howard to take the baton for Friday and Sunday. He will be continuing Summer Worship Series: Triune - Jesus, God-Man Portion, and Sunday, he'll be delivering a powerful word. i'm thrilled to have him, since he is a highly gifted preacher.
on Sunday, i'll be visiting one or two American churches that i had in mind for a while, and will be sharing the love of God along with my flu.
i'll feedback with you on what i saw and experienced as i went there.

so, next time we'll hang out will be next Friday @ 6:30 PM for our Summer Worship Series?

thank you so much for everything, and i will miss you all very much.
i am so blessed to be your pastor, and i'll try my best to be pastor that serve you accordingly!

have a great week,

with much love,

MWL

 

WOWMOM, i see a COW.

pretty much i will write my random thoughts on this.

ohkay. uhm i just wanna sey good job media team..

or should i sey HAN! i hear han kinda launched this thing.

its pretty cool. and i just wanted to say GOOD JOB! this is awesome.

hmmm cant wait for RETREAT GUYS! its like in only 2 days.

uhmmmmmm, God bless. is this like a xanga?

Today we all witnessed something so great and historic. As President Obama made his acceptance speech, I realized how far America has gone. Over a hundred years ago, slavery was dominating a great part of America. African Americans were treated like dogs, like they weren't human. They were hanged, prosecuted, and spit at. Seeing Obama be elected as the PRESIDENT of the United States was really touching to me, as I saw whites, asians, blacks, people of all races celebrating together, united.

It makes me think. There is no way Obama could've have gone from almost a nobody, to the President of the United States in ONLY 2 years by himself. As crazy as it sounds, I really believe God was with Obama throughout the whole journey. I was also reminded that America is truly a nation of dreams and hopes.

A lot of people know that I've been a strong supporter of Obama since January. As I've watched his campaign for the past year, I've truly seen what kind of heart Obama has. Although I disagree with him in some issues, like Proposition 8, I think overall he is better suited for America right now. In my opinion, he is much more likely than the other candidates to help feed the hungry and serve the needy with humility that most polititions lack. I am excited because I believe he will be truly committed to global diplomacy rather than resorting to war as his primary measure of foreign policy. After all, blessed are the peace makers.

And to those who say Obama is a muslim, or some other radical things, just realize that what you are saying is very ignorant. Who are you to judge someones faith? Here is Obama back in Frebruary on religion and government:

 

I truly believe that Obama will bring back the prosperity to the United States, and unite the people. May God bless Obama.

Life is so tough.  Really..  but lately, I've been getting a lot of prayers answered from little personal prayers to really big important prayers I have been praying about fora  lon time and I'm super happy!  I feel so good. :]

I guess after reading Brian Ahn's song I was pretty inspired.

This won't be as good as his (lol) but at least it’s something.

And I have no idea as to the tune, so I guess it might be like a weird poem -.-

Also, if you have an idea to make it sound better, or have a better title or something, don’t hesitate to tell me.

Thanks and here you go:

 

“As I Sing This Song”

By: Me :)

 

Fatherless and empty I wandered through the streets

Weary and broken, my spirit couldn't take anymore

I fell, my consciousness slowly fading, in a heap

But I woke up to the warmth of the Lord.

 

He carried me upon His back, draped across His shoulders,

treating me gently, as He would a lost lamb

My heart broke and I cried, wondering "Why?"

"Why would someone love a stranger so?"

 

His head turned and He told me:

"The Answer is Love."

And I in turn whispered to Him:

"Now I have a Father"

And as I sing this song,

I can only pray that this song would reach You,

in that holy place where one day I will hopefully be,

dancing before Your throne, and seeing Your smiling face.

 

I have become changed, because of His blood,

the ultimate sacrifice, for those He dearly loved.

This blood that gave me entrance

to the place of everlasting hope and joy.

 

And as I look past and reflect upon days gone by,

I start to wonder "Who was I,

that You would stain Your blessed hands

with the sins of one who deserves to die?"

 

I heard His voice and He told me:

"Because I love you."

And I in turn whispered to Him:

"I hope that I will forever praise You"

And as I sing this song,

I can only pray that this song would reach You, in that holy place

where one day I will surely be,

bowing before Your throne, and You will see my joyful face.

 

And now I know that wherever I will be,

I will not be broken, for You are with me.

That light so reassuring, and so divine,

will always be by my side, until the end of time.

 

And now I pray, Savior come and take control

Keep me under the shadow of Your wings

Do not let me go,

but catch me as I fall into Your grace.

 

He spoke to my soul and He told me:

"Don't worry, my son, for I will always hold you dear"

And I in turn could not make a noise

for I was crying with joy as His presence overwhelmed me.

I pulled myself together and looked up at the sky

and yelled out "Thank You Father! Thank You for staying by my side!"

And as I sing this song,

I can only pray that this song would reach You, into that holy place

where one day I will rightfully be,

singing this very song before Your throne,

and praising You, and You alone.

it all started many many weeks ago... (well, over a year, to be exact :] haha) but anyway. ever since kindergarten, i've wanted to be a veterinarian. so whenever anyone asked me (or we had to fill out those honestly pointless 'introduce yourself!' cards in elementary school) "What do you want to be when you grow up?" i've said/written a veterinarian. (well, i wrote "vet" in kindergarten because i didn't know how to spell veterinarian.. but that's beside the point.) i started to BARELY doubt myself starting seventh grade... then eighth grade comes along and i realize that the world's professions aren't just limited to policemen, firemen, doctors, lawyers, and veterinarians.

You really begin to see the possibilities out there, so when freshmen year came and went (and i went through the horrors of Troy Honors Biology) i realized... "do i really want to be a vet?"

 

so then, i started wondering, "what do i like?" and the more i wondered, the more i realized that i was asking the wrong question, realizing that i should've been asking "what would glorify God?" the entire time. this epiphany (haha.) came to me when i found out why my sister wanted to major as an architect. simply she told me, "because God gave me a vision."

 

so i was all o_o WOW. vision? me? hmm. didn't fit too well. when i asked her how and when she got her vision, she answered the question, but added afterwards, "sally, you're worrying too soon, or rather, you're worrying at the wrong time. God will tell you what you're going to do when you need to know."

 

*sigh. such simple words, but it's funny how so many will never understand them.

 

so where is my mind now?

 

i don't want to be a veterinarian anymore. but i still love animals! ... hmm. i just wish i'm able to take better care of them. haha. i hate chemistry. biology was okay, but i don't know if i would want to spend the rest of my life doing it... i don't know if i like math. i can do it well enough so that i can pass with a good grade, but that's about it. english was an okay subject to me until Troy hit. O_o and history? it's fun, but WHY WOULD I WANT TO THAT. haha. but you never know. God takes us to the most unexpected places... i also realized that all the things i thought i had an interest in, i didn't do so well in, but the things i like as hobbies, but wouldn't prefer as a career (such as graphic designing and technology), i'm pretty good at... music is okay. i think i'd be like.. a PRODIGY if i had time to practice (O_o) haha.

 

so judging from that.... i haven't gotten anywhere. BUT THAT'S OKAY!

 

because God... God knows where i'll end up. :]

 

so to those worrying about the future like me, i pass on to you the words of my sister:

 

GOD WILL TELL YOU WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO DO WHEN YOU NEED TO KNOW.

Oh snaps! This is pretty cool you what you guys got here. E-high ministry going all out! nice, veryyyy nice :) I'm so happy I get to know how you guys are doing through this! it's like stalking but not really <3

So, I'm in Savannah, Georgia! Loving it, sort of. 

I missed it so much! And i'm happy to be back in track with school stuff and friends. 

I'm living in a house with three more friends, we met each other through Christian Club last year. They are amazing and I love them so much! :) I'm so blessed to meet them in such a short time and be able to connect at the point to decide to move together! We go to church together too. I'm attending this church called Late Church, the service is held at an old-fashioned theatre. It's nice, and very white-sh. Haha, I dont know why, like it's different. We worship the same songs, but in a different method i guess. And the pastor has a little tall chair to lean on while he's preaching. (?) And he doesnt wear nice suits like Pastor Matt does, but he's got some good words. 

Last Sunday he preached about greatness.

I liked it. 

At night time, I go to 180. This church called Bull Street Church made a building for the college students to work on their projects, worship, have fellowship and even sleep! Its verryyy nice. 

I miss Sarang though. I have you guys in my prayers, I love the fact that we get to write prayer requests and all. 

So, I guess this would be it for now! I wrote too much! 

How's school? Hope you guys are doing great!!!! I miss you all! : ) 

<3 eny

it's been in my heart for a little while now..

that God's really blessing our eHigh with so many things..

the thing that's stuck in my heart for some time now is the urgency,

urgency that makes me believe that all these blessings are not just for us to enjoy,

but to be channeled out to make an impact in this world for Kingdom of God.

 

i just finished reading "Christ Plays in Thousand Places" by Eugene Peterson.

and it made me think a lot about God's touches revealed in history, salvation, and community.

i think i need to grow so much in loving, 'cause i don't think i am yet very good at loving God or loving people.

my heart is beating when i think about eHigh and all that God has in store for us.

 

 

 

...was great. Honestly though, it was not what I have expected/wanted. No ones to blame, but myself. I thought it was awesome that lives were being changed through the Holy Spirit, but personally for me, this retreat was more informational/educational than spritual. It's funny though, because it was exactly what I needed.

I've been to GMI revivals recently and I have witnessed extrordinary things. I was surprised when Pastor Arnold brought it up during our seminar. I've been praying almost every night that the Holy Spirit would manifest my heart and that I'd get 'drunk' again, but I was very discouraged when the Holy Spirit did not come. At times I would be demanding, or threatening to God. I'm not the only one either--I know several other people that have felt exactly the same way as I have. Now that I think about it, that was very foolish of me. Through this retreat and a few days after and before the retreat, I have realized that:

• God will send the Holy Spirit when I am ready, at the right times. If you ask, you will receive. It could be in 2 minutes, 2 weeks, or even 2 years. Always be faithful.
  
• Try not to 'think' about what you are praying, just PRAY and talk to Him. It's hard for me.
• I seriously need to read the Bible more, and start to appreciate God more.
• We shouldn't be frustrated at God for unsaved lives, but we should be thankful that he has saved lives at all.
• God will give visions when you are ready. Apparently, I'm not ready yet, but I have to keep on reading and praying.

I guess I could say that God looks at your life in a long-term scope, while we look at our lives in a short-term view. Whatever God has in store for me in the future, I trust it, and I should stop stressing out about it.

well... where do i start... this retreat was i think by far the greatest retreat ive had in my life. it was my first retreat  as a true born-again christian. im back on my feet, or more like im more confident in my faith now. one thing i learned, its not about feelings. i knew this for a long time, but deep inside, i still praised and prayed depending on emotions. during this retreat, i cant remember how this thought came to me, but i was praying, and thought about those times in mission. it came back to me, and then, it was based on emotions for me. i realized that you have to discipline to pray harder when you cant pray and worship harder and focus more when you cant praise.

 

and above all this, we have to BELIEVE IN GOD!!! when pastor arnold told us about believing in god, and that it means leaning our weight upon god, i was touched, because that was the one thing i ALWAYS wanted to do, but i somehow, either my flesh or satan, kept me and held me back. it is only by god's grace we are able to praise and pray. i learned so much at retreat, and this isnt barely anything i learned...

 

and pastor arnold... that man... such an amazing man, hilarious. lol. i love that man. i think he's the funniest pastor ive met before, and ive never seen a pastor like that. He acts like me too, which i even love more. im so glad that god has sent him to us and that he gave us sermons that touched our hearts thru the holy spirit.

 

this retreat WAS amazing... its all about god. not us. WHO CARES IF PEOPLE THINK IM WEIRD? WHO CARES IF I THINK IM WEIRD? that should be my main phrase. it seems crazy, but its true. who cares. i learned so much. I just thank God that he gave me this oppurtunity to come closer to him, leading me to his cross, and saving me. without God, i would seriously be nothing. i hav no special talent... -_-... only thing i hav is JESUS! BUT Thru God, i hav my talents (-_-') that are useful... lol... well...

 

one time while praying, i pictured myself in a barren, dry desert, with nothing but sandstorms, things that block my view. but then as i was walking i saw the cross and an oasis, which is what was exactly happening in my life. my view was blocked by Satan and all the things of the world, but then, thru times when i earnestly seeked god, i saw the oasis, and more people coming to it. God will bring and show himself to those who earnestly seek him.

 

God was truely moving in this retreat, and pastor arnold gave a clear message every night which we can apply in our lives daily. I just hope and pray that i will never lose insight of this. God will always be with us, whever we are, always forever.

This retreat was very special for me.

 

I have experienced the lowest I have ever been in my spiritual life during this retreat and I have also experienced God's love and mercy more than any other time in my life.

 

There were times when I felt I could not praise or pray or listen to God's word. I felt so spiritually and physically tired and I didn't feel like God could do anything in my life through this retreat. But then every time I felt this way God hit me with a new realization that He is there even through my struggles and exhaustion.

 

Third night's worship was really special for me. I felt the lowest I have ever felt in my life. I couldn't pray or praise. I can't tell you what Pastor Arnold's sermon was on that night because I wasn't listening. I felt spiritually dead.

 

During prayer I watched Ehigh members falling over and passing out, shaking because of what is most likely the Holy Spirit. I remember asking God why not me? I've prayed for this throughout the retreat, why not bless me so abundantly like You have with them? I felt depressed and I felt truly desperate. I think for the first time in my life I really became desparate, whith nowhere to go. I fell on my knees and cried out to God.

 

God answers prayers. He spoke to me that night. He told me to wait, I am not ready for that kind of blessing yet. You might not even need that kind of blessing in the future. He told me that He has His own will for me. He told me that I was not ready for such blessings, but He will bless me in a different way. In that moment I felt God's presence more directly than I have ever felt it before. The feelings of tiredness and dejectedness dissapeared, and I felt the peace and joy of God for the first time since I was saved.

 

Praise the Lord for He is good. God bless! =)

 

 

Hello everyone!

As you can see, the site is very new, so there may be a lot of bugs and things that need to be fixed floating around. Please post everything broken or weird in the comments below, and I will fix them as fast as I can.

So far, I am aware of the following:

• Fix the default profile background image. (Currently it's a huge picture of a lime for everyone...)
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Pleaaaaaaaase, post anything you can find! It'll make it easier and more organized for me.

 

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edit: oh, I forgot to mention. The software the site is running on right now is originally for a dating/socialnetworking site, so there may be odd/inappropriate/random features. If you see any, PLEASE post them up too, so I can remove 'em. Also, if you see non-Sarang ADVERTISEMENTS. please report to me what page it is on and what kind of ad it was, because there isn't supposed to be ads.

 

 

hey, ehigh

so i uploaded some photos from todays fundraiser.

just a little of my hundreds of pictures. :)

iono if i ws allowed to do that.

does that take up alot of space?

Even though my child is just little more than a week old,

I have to say that I'm so looking forward to all the time I'll be spending with her.

I feel like I can just stare at her all day and not get tired.

Though SMN and I wish our Olivia would sleep at night a little more,

we are so grateful and joyful.

 

One of the most delightful thing I'm looking for from Olivia in the future,

one of the first thing that came to my mind

when I was thinking about how we would spend time together,

is not for how she would bring back home some achievement award,

acceptance letters,

or reports cards with many As (perhaps, all..A..s?)

 

Rather, it is her looking at me in the eye and saying,

 

 

"Daddy, I love you."

 

 

I so long to hear that from her.

 

 

 

I am certain that our Father in heaven desires the same.

 

More than anything, it is our expression of our love inside

 

that He would delight in,

 

coming from genuine love for Him in all of life.

 

 

 

 

 

What would you tell Him today?

 

 

MWL

What have I in this life
But the love in Your eyes
This empty world will one day fade
Only Your truth will remain

Jesus, all I have is You
You're the hope I'm holding to
I might weep but still my faith
Rests in You

What have I in this life
But the love in Your eyes
This empty world will one day fade
Only Your truth will remain

Jesus, all I have is You
You're the hope I'm holding to
I might weep but still my faith
Rests in You

As the heavens hold the skies
It's Your hand that holds my life
And Your love will lead me on
When all else is gone

Jesus, all I have is You
You're the hope I'm holding to
I might weep but still my faith
Rests in You

As the heavens hold the skies
It's Your hand that holds my life
And Your love will lead me on
When all else is gone

Jesus all I have is you

Jesus all I have is you

Jesus all I have is you

Jesus all I have is you

What Have I in this life

 

This song was sung by Jae from Holy Wave as the offering song and it made me realize that God is the only thing we actually need in life. We get so many things in life, some things last us a lifetime, some only last a few hours, but the love of God and the truth remains once this life is over. All I ever wanted was something I could hold onto forever, and that is Jesus. I have come to realize that Jesus is all I have, there is nothing more. He's been there the second I was born, and he will be there even after I die. He leads me through hard and soft times. In times where I felel like I'm in a deep pit, unable to get out, it's his hand that I reach for. In times of sorrow and grief it's God who picks me up and holds me tight. I find peace in seeking God. I find warmth in spending time with God. I find happiness in serving God. Jesus, all I have is you.

So much memories, huh? I think this was the most loved/sung/danced to song throughout the whole mission training and trip. Go on my profile to listen to it.

ok... this is a pretty cool... all the posts, blogs, and stuff...

and someday.... im gonna learn piano and play walk on water like pastor matt... it'll be beautiful... =)

But i wont have the voice... -_-....

HIIIIII CHRISTIAN!!!!!

 

and john park....

u....

 

-_-